Hello Again

There are darker places to be than where I've been for the last year, for the last more than a year.

Darker, worser, angrier, hate-ier,unhappier places.

I am sure of it.

I can't name any off hand right now, but I can't believe I've found the deepest, darkest holes to crawl into.

I'm feeling like I don't exist, like I don't have substance, that I'm just kind of here in a corner kind of waiting and not much mattering, until the door opens and I can step through to the other side and be done with all this mess.

I am tired, my friends...exhausted...worn slap out, squeezed dry, used up, done.

I don't honestly know that I will bounce back.  Probably.  I mean, I always have.  But I think...it will be...a much more difficult bounce.